It’s hard to imagine a life where you won’t be hurt at least once. Intentional. Unintentional. It just won’t happen. It didn’t happen with Jesus, it won’t happen with you. God never promised us a life where we won’t be hurt. He just promised us a way through it, yet some people never find their way through. Why? Could they possibly be too comfortable being hurt?
I share my life through this blog. I attempt to become as transparent and open as I can be. I show my imperfections on a blank slate and how I am learning how to heal and live more like Jesus. It’s not because it’s easy. Don’t, for a second, believe that being this vulnerable with people who may never meet me in person is something that is easy to do. It’s not, but I understand something about ministry and being a disciple of God. My story is not just for me. I don’t go through things so I can harbor them for myself for next time, but to share so that my brothers and sisters in Christ might travel through their pain a little easier than I did.
If you struggle telling your story, are you healed? If you keep your testimonies to yourself or only people you can trust, are you healed? If you think about your past and only feel shame, are you healed?
Asking yourself the hard questions are a necessary step in this healing process. I can promise that sometimes you will cry during your testimonies to others. Sometimes, anger will try to rise up and quiet you. Shame will try to rise up and hinder you. If those emotions didn’t come, Satan wouldn’t be doing his job and you can guarantee that he is always clocked in. So is the Holy Spirit.
More tears may fall than words may be spoken. More fear will rise than platforms to share, but PUSH. Push through the discomfort. Push through the pain. Don’t get comfortable being hurt. Be bold in your testimonies. Be proud of your scars and stop looking for someone to say sorry. They may never apologize, and so what. Be kind to yourself and forgive yourself for the mistakes you hold on to. You aren’t doing this for them, but for yourself. Being cleaned by grace doesn’t feel good all the time, but it’s worth it.
“…how much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered Himself without blemish to God, cleanse your conscience from dead works to serve the living God” (Hebrew 9:14)